One day here. The next day gone.
\nNo warning. No goodbye. It just ended.
\nI don\u2019t get it.
\n <\/p>\n
It is like doing a disappearing act.
\nNow you see them. Now you do not.
\nLike voices swept away in a storm.
\nI have been waiting. Hoping.
\nLooking to see your faces.
\nListening to hear your voices.
\nStood here for quite a while now.
\nNo luck yet.
\n <\/p>\n
Waiting. Contemplating. Questioning.
\nConsidering the circumstances.
\nSearching on the inside. Looking on the outside.
\nAttempting to find an explanation.
\nSearching for a reason. Trying to understand.
\nI still don\u2019t get it.
\n <\/p>\n
But still I wait. Still, I hope.
\nI keep my eyes peeled in eager expectation
\nI listen for the faintest signal.
\nAnticipating a glimmer of hope. One day soon.
\nA small sign. A Message. Something.
\nNo luck so far.
\n <\/p>\n
So, I presume you have gone away for good.
\nWith no way for me to contact you.
\nGone undercover like in the movies. Disappeared.
\nOut of my life. Like chaff swept away in the wind.
\nLeft behind are questions and distant memories.
\nLaughter. Christmases. Birthday cakes. Hugs.
\nI miss you all.
\n <\/p>\n
Sorrow fills the empty space that remains.
\nA great loss. Crushing. Unbearable. Painful.
\nLike a scalpel cutting its way into flesh.
\nSlowly. Steadily. Deliberately.
\nAll hope seems lost. I am heavy laden.
\nI think, I get it now. It is becoming clearer.
\n <\/p>\n
This dark place has held me captive.
\nI am suffocating. I am drowning.
\nA slave to unanswered questions, loss, and grief.
\nKidnapped by hurt, fear and shame.
\nRestrained by the clutches of darkness.
\n <\/p>\n
I choose to let go. I choose to forgive.
\nI lay it all down. Jesus, please take over.
\nHelp me to start again. Strengthen me.
\n <\/p>\n
There is light in the distance and activity above.
\nA gentle breeze from behind prods me on.
\nAn invitation to move forward. Out of this place.
\nDarkness is now behind me. The sandglass turns.
\nHis hand is holding mine. I am not alone.
\nThe old chapter ends. My rags are gone. Replaced.
\n <\/p>\n
Something is happening up ahead.
\nI hear, \u201cI am doing a new thing. Come, look, and see.\u201d
\nMy legs tremble. I am scared. Unknown territory.
\nHe knows. He looks at me lovingly and says, \u201cIt is good.\u201d
\nI believe Him. Yes. I embrace this new thing.
\nI leave the old behind. Buried. No looking back.
\nI feel lighter. My heart skips like a young deer.
\nIn anticipation of what is ahead.
\nNew life. Springtime. The goodness of God.
\n <\/p>\n
A new chapter begins.<\/p>\n
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